The Phoenix Effect
So I think it’s okay to talk about my life and what’s going on. I find that sometimes people can relate. Plus, for some reason people want to know what’s going on in my life, so maybe this will be a good way to keep up with me.
I’ve been missing my friends lately. My friend Alex moved to Long Beach and started working for MTV and last week was in Tahoe so it was nice to finally meet up after his trip. My friend Jessica finally came back from Baja California where her family has a house on the beach. She definitely deserved a vacation after a year of student teaching at a high school. Although we haven’t gotten together yet, I’m excited she’s back. I also haven’t seen my friend Carmen. Although she hasn’t gone out of town, we just haven’t been able to get together yet. I’m glad I’ve been able to enjoy summer and still go out thanks to my friend Tony. We’ve gone out dancing and drinking quite a bit this week and thankfully so. Summer’s about having fun and it’s always been a time to take a break from school and the stresses that come with the rest of the year.
So, on a more personal note, I feel like something’s happening. I call it the Phoenix Effect. It’s when I feel like I’m changing or evolving. It usually happens when I’ve grown weary or tired of a situation or of my lifestyle. I feel like my former self begins to slowly break down and eventually I face the things that have been wearing me down. This has happened a few times in my lifetime. Usually the “rebirth” is a very positive experience where I’m reenergized and gain focus and perspective on things I want in life and come back to the basics of what’s important in life.
I’m not sure what all the changes will be, but I can certainly tell what are some of the things that have worn me down. It’s time for change. It’s about becoming a better version of myself. It will be a time for growth. It’s an opportunity to get myself together and finally make some real progress. I can already tell it will be a big change and it will affect every aspect of my life. I guess you could say I’m entering the next chapter of my life. I think people usually say that on their birthday or at the end of the year, but for me it’s now.
I can’t be certain what will come, but I’m sure I will be prepared for whatever’s in store. I will rise like a phoenix from the ashes.