It’s a new year and my life, as usual, is continually changing.
Life’s constant evolutionary cycles fascinate me and I find myself enjoying life everyday.
I know some of you have been aching to know what’s been going on in my life. I apologize for the brief hiatus on my blog, but I’ve been busy enjoying life! If you follow me on twitter or are my friend on Facebook then you’ve been somewhat updated on some of my adventures. If not, check out the newly updated menu at the top of the page and check me out!
I’d also like to announce that I’ve made some changes to the site, in case you haven’t noticed and I’ve launched a video on vimeo. I find I can surpass the stupid music property laws that youtube has on vimeo. I want to keep this blog fun and interesting and some time to time a bit personal so you guys know what’s going on with me. Tell me what you think about the changes!
I’ll have more of a chance to update now that the semester is starting again and I will once again find myself avoiding homework and procrastinating, pretending deadlines don’t exist and pulling all-nighters. No, I intend on being more on top of things this semester. Last semester went well and I’m glad I earned good grades. I’m excited for this new semester and I look forward to discovering my professors and new courses.
I’m taking math (shoot-me-please), psychology: adulthood and aging, TV/film, Chicano history (gotta get in touch with my ROOTS, ese), and Shakespeare. Yes, I know, Shakespeare. Some have asked why I would do such a thing to myself. Others have looked at me with pity and sorrow. I’ve decided to take the class because 1) it fulfills a general education requirement to transfer and 2) I really haven’t read or studied a lot of shakespeare. In high school I read the basic plays and I’ve even seen a few plays, but it wasn’t until my lit class last semester that I actually got a chance to review form and study a lot of poetry, including Shakespeare. So yes, the idealist student in me actually cares about learning and I feel I can greatly benefit from this class, not to mention find that it’s yet another challenge I step up to. EducatedGay.
I took a trip out to Las Vegas last month. I went with some friends and it was an amazing trip!
There was, of course, plenty of drinking and fun, but we kept it classy and watched Phantom of the Opera at the Venetian. Holy…smokes. It was…unbelievably good. The theater itself was beautiful and all the effects and music and simply everything was just so good. I’m so glad everything worked out so well. Vegas proved to be a very relaxing and sort of care-free experience. Ugh. Loveit.
Christmas was really great. I spent it with family and it was just really rewarding and special to take the time to spend time with people I love. New Year’s was fun. I spent it with friends at a party in LA. It was a fun festive season!
There have been some really crazy changes going on in my personal life. There are many times where I feel acutely conflicted internally and others when I’ll feel in almost perfect harmony with the world. It’s almost as if there’s been a thorn in my heart and I just ignore it most of the time, but sooner or later I’ll have to deal with it and tend to the wound. I hope I’m ready when that day comes.
I’ve gotten some feedback saying people enjoy reading about my life on this blog, so here you are! Haha
I hope everyone had a fun and safe holiday season. Any year’s resolutions? Mine’s to carpe diem and maybe do a little traveling. I have another Vegas trip coming up next month. It has hot-tranny-mess written all over it. Loveit.
Oh-em-gee, you guys. Halloween weekend was so crazy this year. I had some fun times this weekend. This year I not only went to Knott’s Scary Farm (Haunt) but also checked out Six Flags Magic Mountain’s Fright Fest. It was spook-tacular!
Now it’s over and I realized it’s November. Can you believe that?! Halloween just passed, Thanksgiving’s right around the corner and before you know it, it’s Christmas and New Year’s. A couple weeks later it’s my birthday! Ahhh!!
Tomorrow is an important day not only because I [and hopefully all of you] will be exercising my [and your] right to vote, but it’s also my good friend Jessica’s birthday! Should I play “Las Mañanitas” or “Birthday Sex” or “In Da Club” by 50. We’ll see what goes down. I’m actually working so I’ll have to join the party a little later than everyone, but better late than never!
You guys, I’m so exhausted. I haven’t gotten much sleep because I’ve been overwhelmed with homework. I recently started doing some more writing and broadened my writing to include some poetry, so it’s an exciting time of exploration and growth. Maybe I’ll post something on here sometime. Hmm…maybe.
It’s very difficult to wake up as it is early in the morning, but it’s especially difficult to wake up to work out. It was like the eternal battle between good and evil this morning. Yoga was great, but now at the end of the day, I’m worn out.
I have an early work out scheduled for tomorrow. Ugh, wish me luck!
This is Leandro Maeder. He’s a model and he’s on my blog for no reason at all. Jesus…help me.
Pardon my drooling.
My GOODNESS. Okay, I need a moment…
Anyway, Leandro has nothing to do with what my entry is about. (Except for maybe that I still have an eye for beautiful men). Haha
Some of you have been wondering what’s been going on in my life so here’s a little update:
I’ve been nearly drowning in schoolwork and this semester has proven to be quite challenging. I haven’t been going out quite as much as I’d like, but I guess partying doesn’t exactly help when you’re trying to get good grades and I’m trying this thing where I’m being responsible. We’ll see how this plays out.
I’ve also been working quite a bit. It’s been back and forth with hours at work, so one week I’ll be at the store every day and others I might not be there for 5 days, so I guess I try and make the best of it. For now, I guess it works; my focus is school and getting everything I need done.
I’ve been active but I need to crank my fitness into high gear. I need to get my Fergie on. (I be up in the gym just working on my fitness). Yoga completely kicks my ass…and I love it. Friends, I have been contemplating, dare I say…running? I absolutely detest running/jogging/walking in general, but I know it would be a good idea considering my fitness goals. Ugh. Who wants to join me? Woo. Hoo.
All in all, I’ve been busy as usual and working out some aspects of my life I’m not satisfied. This is definitely a time for change and so far it’s proven to be rewarding. Taking positive steps and making hard decisions will pay off later on.
That’s all for now, kids. Take care. Oh, and remember: Never settle for anything less than the best. I know I don’t. 😉
Happy Labor Day! I had a crazy labor day weekend. Friday night a few friends and I went out to a bar in Long Beach called Panama Joe’s and got VIP seating, prices, and food! Who knew food at a bar would be so delicious!
Saturday I attended a wedding with Tony. Let me tell you…this wedding celebration was authentically Mexican. No joke. Not only was delicious Mexican food served, but there was a live Spanish band performing and at one point there were traditional Chinelo dancers. Drums and trumpets, people jumping and dancing, it was quite the celebration.
After the wedding party we went to another AE party. It was a mardi gras theme and we got there way too early. Well, before long everyone arrived including some “hot totties.” Everyone was up in arms about hot guys at the party. It was a lot of fun.
But that, my friends, was not the end of Saturday night. Oh, no! We went out to a club in Anaheim afterwards where there were many many latino boys and girls. Last time I went to this club I was a bit “outspoken” and in a peculiar mood. This time around I was surprised to find that I ran into a a few guys I’ve dated. It was terribly awkward at first, but as usual, the party went on and I just had a good time. Oh! Tony and I decided to check out the dance floor on the second level and were pleasantly surprised to find a Mexican drag queen [more like tranny] lip syncing a Spanish ballad. How do I know it was a tranny, you may ask? Because she had boobs. In fact, she had one out and wearing a pastie. Oh yeah! Oh, and she was speaking rapid-fire Spanish that went a little something like this:
“blahblahblahblah-PENDEJA! blahblahblahblah-CULERO! blahblahPINCHEblahblah blahCONCHA– blahblahblah-NO-SE-CREAN-blahblahblahPUTA! blahblah-VIVAMEXICO!!!“
The crowd went wild and were laughing their asses off. I was just trying to keep up but I was very entertained. Is there a Mexican version of “RuPaul’s Drag Race” perhaps? Hmm…maybe I should create it! Genius!
It turned out to be quite an eventful night for both of us and it was a great time.
Last Wednesday we also paid Club Lucky a visit at the House of Blues in Anaheim. That was also a wild and crazy fun night. I busted out my destroyed white skinny jeans. Let me just say this: those jeans can get me into a lot of trouble or get me cast in a reality TV show. 🙂
I’ve been pretty busy with school and setting up classes. I’m glad I have a set schedule now and I hope next semester I’ll be able to get all the classes I need to transfer. Selling textbooks has also taken up a bit of my time.
I post flyers around school advertising my textbooks from last semester and I sell them to students directly. Uhm…selling textbooks feels a lot like selling drugs. “Hey, did you bring it?” “Where can I meet you?” “Could you cut me a deal?” “What are you wearing? I’ll meet you by the building.” Talk about SUPER shady business. But in selling my textbooks I also learned that I’m an honest businessman. I try and help my fellow students make sure they’re buying the correct textbook. I’m SUCH a Mother Theresa. My good friend Jessica once told me, “You’re like…a female Jesus.”
So even with all the going out, I constantly find myself thinking about what I have to do the next day and how much homework I have. It’s sad to think that while I’m shaking what my momma gave me I’m also thinking about writing reports for my speech communication class. Hmm…
They had a great sale at my workplace for the weekend. It was 20% off all merchandize. I know a lot of stores had some great sales. Did anyone take advantage?
Oh, I decided to give up soda and try to eat healthier. I think this is my second week and although it’s difficult, it feels good make that effort. It’s kind of odd because it feels like I’m learning how to eat all over again. I’ve just been talking about getting healthy for a while and I wanted to take some steps in maintaing a healthier diet without going overboard with a crazy cleanse or something. I’m also staying active with my yoga class and I attended a dance class last week that nearly killed me, but it was an extraordinary workout. Step by step, I’m getting there.
Hope the weekend was good for everyone, too.
School is back in session and let me tell you, I’m ready for Fall fashion. So needless to say, I was so excited to finally be able to try out some of the outfits in my closet. I have some really great sweaters and some outerwear that I’ve been dying to wear out. That’s all fine and dandy except…it’s like a thousand degrees outside.
My goodness, it’s been freakin’ hot! I’ve had to modify some of my looks to deal with the heat. Don’t get me wrong, I love sunny southern California and fun in the sun, but I have classes in the morning and I’m out and about during the peak heat moments. Well, I’ve been trying to make the best of it. Even though school’s started, it still kind of feels like summer. I went swimming over at Jessica’s recently and I’ve been able to have some really great times. It’s kind of weird that I’ve had some really great summer moments when it’s coming to an end. Well, I think I’ll just enjoy them either way.
It’s been tough to register for classes this fall. I got most of the classes I need, but there are a few that I haven’t had luck with. Rejection feels so strange! It’s awful. But here’s what I foresee happening, based on my experiences, the professor who rejected me will later fall in love with me. LOL
I still need to buy textbooks and a few materials. Oh! I’m taking yoga this semester! I’m so excited! I’ve never taken a yoga class and I’ve always wanted to. I need to pick out a cute yoga mat and little yoga mat sling. So cute.
So after an awkward first week of school, sitting through introductions and reviewing syllabi, I’m glad it’s out of the way and we can really get into the material and get some work done. I think I have one of those personalities that I like getting “in the zone” and there’s no stopping me.
There are some interesting things I’ve noticed this semester about my school:
- There are many more attractive people on campus than ever before! Every day as I’m walking around I always think, “Wow, what happened? Eye candy.”
- While noticing how many hot guys are on campus, I also noticed that it seems like most of the black guys at my school are in sports. Why is it that most black guys at my school are part of the athletics department?
- Men’s athletics at school are made up of mostly black guys and white guys. And a few Latinos, of course. Most of women’s athletics are mostly white girls. LOL Just strange.
- I’m an honors student, and being in an honors class has its pros and cons. It’s a smaller setting, so there’s a greater opportunity to have discussions about the material and really understand and learn about what’s going on in the class. It’s also nice to not feel like the smartest student in the room.There are a lot of really bright minds in the honors classes and I often find myself challenged by my peers, which is great. As far as the disadvantages of being in an honors class…well, how can I put this…some of my peers, although very smart, aren’t exactly what you’d describe as…cool. Or social. I think there are some people that are just so smart that they aren’t concerned with being cool or looking “fashionable” or whatever since they’ll be ruling the world later on. [I, of course would rather do it all!] I’m really not too concerned with what everyone’s wearing, but it is a bit strange having socially awkward people in a small setting.
I’m glad the semester has begun and I know it’s going to be a great one! I like school, so I’m excited for the next sixteen weeks and I’m especially excited for yoga. The eye candy isn’t too bad either.
So I think it’s okay to talk about my life and what’s going on. I find that sometimes people can relate. Plus, for some reason people want to know what’s going on in my life, so maybe this will be a good way to keep up with me.
I’ve been missing my friends lately. My friend Alex moved to Long Beach and started working for MTV and last week was in Tahoe so it was nice to finally meet up after his trip. My friend Jessica finally came back from Baja California where her family has a house on the beach. She definitely deserved a vacation after a year of student teaching at a high school. Although we haven’t gotten together yet, I’m excited she’s back. I also haven’t seen my friend Carmen. Although she hasn’t gone out of town, we just haven’t been able to get together yet. I’m glad I’ve been able to enjoy summer and still go out thanks to my friend Tony. We’ve gone out dancing and drinking quite a bit this week and thankfully so. Summer’s about having fun and it’s always been a time to take a break from school and the stresses that come with the rest of the year.
So, on a more personal note, I feel like something’s happening. I call it the Phoenix Effect. It’s when I feel like I’m changing or evolving. It usually happens when I’ve grown weary or tired of a situation or of my lifestyle. I feel like my former self begins to slowly break down and eventually I face the things that have been wearing me down. This has happened a few times in my lifetime. Usually the “rebirth” is a very positive experience where I’m reenergized and gain focus and perspective on things I want in life and come back to the basics of what’s important in life.
I’m not sure what all the changes will be, but I can certainly tell what are some of the things that have worn me down. It’s time for change. It’s about becoming a better version of myself. It will be a time for growth. It’s an opportunity to get myself together and finally make some real progress. I can already tell it will be a big change and it will affect every aspect of my life. I guess you could say I’m entering the next chapter of my life. I think people usually say that on their birthday or at the end of the year, but for me it’s now.
I can’t be certain what will come, but I’m sure I will be prepared for whatever’s in store. I will rise like a phoenix from the ashes.
Happy Birthday, USA! (cue the national anthem)
How was your fourth? Mine was different than any other year’s. I had to go into work for a few hours. I’m currently working at an American Eagle Outfitters store. I wasn’t too bummed I had to work since I got holiday pay. So I’m at work and it’s actually pretty busy, so time flies. I got off work at around 7:00PM, so when I got outside the sun was still out, which was nice.
I got home and was surprised to find my family having a BBQ at our house. We don’t usually hold events at our house, we’ll usually go to someone else’s house or have the event somewhere else. So I pull up to my driveway and my mom and dad are sitting on the front porch and my brother Dave and his girlfriend are grilling burgers and hot dogs…and corn. lol Apparently corn is a BBQ essential.
My brother Angel and his friends are all lounging and my littlest brother Gregory is nearby playing with a cousin. It was really nice to have my family together just enjoying our time together. I’ve always considered family very important.
Later on, I could hear fireworks being launched. My family bought little firecrackers and small fireworks that we light in our driveway. My siblings were all having a great time and I was standing next to my parents enjoying myself, too.
Okay, so we’re all having a kodak moment and BOOM! For some reason my Mexican neighbors all managed to bring very illegal fireworks into this country. How illegal, you may ask? HUGE fireworks. I’m talking Disneyland-big. Oh yeah! So Pepe across the street is launching these catastrophic fireworks (which detonate car alarms with it’s sonic boom, by the way) and although they’re launched from across the street, they are exploding right above my house. LOL MY house! Don’t get me wrong, they were beautiful in all their glory…but it felt a little too Hiroshima for my taste.
After the fireworks are over we all settle down and wind down from a nice day. And then it happened: I got a text from someone in my past and it felt like my world faded to black and there was a spotlight on this text and all my feelings were brought up and suddenly I’m expected to react to something I didn’t feel prepared for. It’s funny because I had been thinking about this past year and everything that’s happened and what do you know…it’s like there was a signal sent out. It always seems like my life is like a well composed symphony, including crescendos and fortissimos, but these intense moments, although make for a beautiful story, put a strain on my heart. Things just have a way of happening in my life. I realize that although a lot of what I go through is sometimes difficult, I find myself having the most amazingly beautiful moments. I guess you can’t have your highs without your lows.
I’m curious to know how things will turn out and what my future has in store, but for now, I just enjoy life day to day.